time flies

What is time? To me time is something that never returns. When people think of time they usually think of the word regret. But why cry over spilled milk? Easier said than done. We all know that we could have done Alot better of we had not done this or that but one thing . Time flies and never returns. But there is one thing we can do that is to make the best out of the future. Well , it's better late than never right? One thing I must learn is to let go of the past and welcome my bright future, but unfortunately my past is holding me back. I regret everything from my psle results to being such a show off in e past. I often think that I'm very smart but in actually fact I'm not being smart by thinking that way because I will be too confident of myself and would fail to be able to learn things that I don't know. I pray that the lord would bless me with the courage and wisdom to overcome my past and move forward towards my bright future with the lord Jesus Christ. I pray lord that you would help me a life with christian values and that lord, you would help me love the people around me even those whoare against me. Lastly I would like to thank you lord for all these blessings you have given me and I would like to pray that lord you help me to be humble in my thought , actions and speech that I may be able to humbly learn from any person even the beggars on the street. Because lord I know that all of us are your children. All of us are children of god. Amen

syf over!!!

Syf is finally over, I'm finally gonna be able to leave my broken heart on the shelve for a while. I call ms Ho Yst night to ask what to do regarding me and ms pauls misunderstanding. She claims that there is no misunderstanding but the fact is that there is. Ok, this sounds like a paradox! Oh! My relationship with Shane is making steady improvement. I am learning, learning a very hard but important lesson. I really have to learn that life is full of surprises and I can't control the flow of events. It's especially hard for a control freAk like me to learn.I just know one thing , god has bless me with many things that others don't have and I have to learn to appreciate it. I believe that with e help of my god, I would be able to do it! Faith is believing , miracles happen only when u believe in the lord Jesus Christ

silver

Choir got silver... But y Am I upset and not happy?

tonights prayer

May the lord be my shepherd that he may guide me on to the path of goodness and love that he may bless me with the wisdom to differentiate right from wrong that the holy spirit touch the hearts of the people around me. Lord Jesus, I pray that u may cover my friends and family with your blood and cast all unwholesome spirits out in your name. Lord may you bless that with happiness peace wisdom joy health . Lord pls forgive me for abandoning you in gd times and that I only seek you in bad times . Lord help me to come closer to u that u may teach me the joy of helping people that u may take away my selfishness and take away my pride so that I would be able to humbly admit my mistakes and learn from them. In your most precious name I pray. Amen

Leaving choir

Leaving choir is one of the things that i really dont want to do... why i leave choir? i really dont know why... When i was in choir , i was very ambitious, may be too ambitious that it all back fired. Now, with out choir, i feel so empty. I dont know if i miss my cca points or that i really have feelings for that cca. I really dont know why but i just cant let go. every time i hear the word syf, i really want to cry . its like a needle pricking my heart. i really have alot of emotions that i try very hard to keep to myself but it is really hurting me, its killing me. The reason is simple , I abandoned god when times were good... i made the wrong move and i make a mess... its like moses and the Jews...God performed miricles over and over again but they lose faith in him when times are good, worship other statues and animals... I say alot of stuff but i realise i dont act on it... i make empty statments... statments that are over idealistic and not realistic.... I just pray that god would show me the way and take away all the pain hate in my heart, that the lord Jesus Christ would help me concentrate on my studies that he would bless those who backstabbed and insulted me... may the lord help me to walk out of this agony. and may he be my shepherd and would take me where he wants me to go... I know that if the lord is with me ... no matter who misunderstands me, i have my god who is with me by my side comforting me that those who believe would have eternal life.... May the lord bless and touch those ppl who are for and against me that his holy spirit my bless and touch the hearts of millions . Oh lord, forgive me for my wrong doings because i know im not perfect, help me change and mould me the way u want me to be... in your most precios name i pray , amen